The Lives and Times of Nat and Beck

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If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
 you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting

Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart. 

GUTTED!
What do I do now?

Why the fuck does he do this?
Why does he build her hopes up and then make them come crashing down again?

Why does she let him?
Does he not realise that everytime he does it she loses a little bit more faith in him?
What is he so scared of? Can't he just tell them all bollocks and sacrifice a little piece of something. We have given so much for him, he have done so much for him and now he is back peddling at a fast rate of fucking knots!!!!!

Do it tell him bollox tell him to screw himself you are a man you have a life you werent born to live through your dad so dont fucking do it!!!!!

Even if it doesn't make you

If I died tomorrow

What would you say?

Would you say I was special

In my own unique way

 

Did I have an impact

On your sad and wilting life

Would you still love me forever?

Through all the pain and strife?

 

If I died tomorrow

Would you cry at the pain?

Of losing one of your best friends

Never to see again

 

Would you carry on without me?

Would you try and stop your tears?

Or would you let them flow forever

For years and years and years?

 

Would you pick up the pieces?

And mend a broken heart?

Would hold it all together?

Or would it tear you apart?

is lonely :(

For the first time in a long time I didn't feel anything when I made someones day :-/ I made 2 little girls day today and the looks on there faces didn't fill me with that warm fuzzy feeling I normally get :( wish someone would tell me whats wrong with me!

Losing the one person I thought I had left to believe in!

Oops forgot to post :(

Sitting out the back with Shirl, hearing the rain in the background, talking about Justin and life and my life and where I should be going!

And mum gave me the same fob off story that she always gives me.

I feel like i aint go a family apart from Nat!!!!

Ive got a father that is battling his love for an alcoholic and a mum that just doesnt give a shit at all!!!!

 Well i have done a full day at work and im absolutely shattered and im sat here in 3/4 pj bottoms long black and white tigger striped socks and my hoody.

Talk about comfort man!!!

Dad gave me the usual lecture this morning about making sure that my clothes dont smell it like
"Theyre fucking clean on this morning knob off!!!"

Then i got the third degree about being too early its like you yell at me if im late you yell at me if im early what do i have to be fucking psychic?!

So now im sat here chilled out with my laptop and Mo is squarking away nicely and the kitten keeps jumping on my boobs.

 

My car is poorly, when I check the oil level today theres NOTHING in there, its all on the fucking ground underneath it! :( It took me 20mins to get the oil cap off :( it had sealed itself! i'm plastered in Oil which wont come off AND Dad gave me a lecture about keeping the oil levels right in the car! it's like 'DAD last week it was ok, it's sat there and leaked! so fuck off'

Managed to get it over to the garage, keeping fingers crossed it's not going to be too serious :(

I miss my Corsa already

Where do I stand?
       With Justin
       With Mum
       With Dad
       With everyone

Memory 1
Getting up at 9am and trying to read my book whilst Trixi chews the pages, plays leap frog over the book and generally scratches and bites the living day lights out of me.

Memory 2
Sitting on the sofa with nat next to me crying with laughter at The Fart Matrix, please go and have a look its hilarious!!!

Memory 3
Walking back from the park trying to stay upright laughing so hard at a memory that envoved Hobby Craft in Coventry and  a mans uncontrolable flatulence!!!!

Memory 1: sleeping til 11.30am :O not done that in a while!

Memory 2: Walking with Becky, dreaming Justin was walking with us, holding my hand

Memory 3: laughing that hard on the way home I ONLY JUST made it to the toilet!

Memory 4: Michael Buble - Everything